Yes I Can

Why that today? I just feel low, so I  tell myself that so I can get out of my doldrums and get things done.
I  am at a,  Don't care stage right now.
Some days I feel uncertain of the future. I hide it my feelings as I do not want to choose somone elses attitude for them.
 Some days  I spout my uncertainty  for the world to hear,
 And some days  I say, "It will be All right"
Even though my heart says "How?"

When really What will All Right Be.
Regardless of the outcome "It will be All Right,"
Why Because some things we Can not Fix.
Life is in the hands of God. I am sure we are all unsure of our futures at times, Mine seems more unsure than most people I know.
Oh I will live, But where does God want me, or does he even care where I am?
Will I lose my spouse of 48 plus years and  just freeze up or will I survive,
 Will he survive if the table is turned?

I do not know but God knows who, when, where. Or does he?
Does he even care about our small petty problems?
He has big ones to solve,
He is wanting more followers and doers than he is wanting sayers and slow pokes in his army.

I know the reason for my attitude ,I have the uneasys. LOL LOL
That is something that an old friend offered another elderly friend.
"A little Easer to get her to sleep"

Yesterday Lou and I laughed for over half an hour about our lives. Not that they are bad, but they are now funny.
We see what we face and sometime it is so funny, you just drop down and Laugh with no abandon.
Our Men are getting so deaf, I usually say, "third times a charm" Then he hears me.
It is funnier when he tries to repeat what I say.
But let me say this, for a 73, almost 74 year old he is in great condition.
His legs hurt, He cant think sometime, He loses words, He can see not further than the moment he is living in. (maybe that is a great thing).
I envy his outlook at times and sometimes I remind him,"We have each other and that matters more than silver or gold"
We compliment each others down or up times.

 But he never loses his balance in the check book, to the Penny.
"Old Accountants never die, They just lose their balance,"
 Does not apply here.

We had two weeks of just lying around, keeping Jammie's on and eating what we have.
I told David, "You know,I know I need things from the store, but I then think, "Make do or Do Without"
He tells me we Have to go.
It is not like we have no food here, It is just unforgiving to my sensitive nature to food.
For example we took a trip out on New Years Eve. As I approached the check out, the clerk began coughing, Deep from the lungs rough,raspy cough.
I said, "That sounds Unhealthy"
She responded with "I get this every year."
The more I thought of it the more irritated I got.  I told David "You have to handle the check out as I cant take a chance right now."
I backed out of the check counter without being within 5 feet of her.
Poor girl, I know she was working miserably sick.

But God gave me brains to take care of my self. So I am doing just that. I am avoiding people like the plague. If I could be around illness, I would go see my Angels in another town close by.
Man I miss them. Terribly. I want HUGS from my Grand babies.
I want to see Kian waving his little hands going "Hi Ma, Hi Pa"
He call us Ma and Pa. We call him Zoom Zoom.

All day long Mamaw sat,

And sat and sat.

sort of like

 the Gingham Dog and the Calico Cat.

 I bet my Hiney is spreading. I for one,am not going to look.

Anyway when talking to Ken this weekend. I said, "Did you know D spent the entire night out this weekend." I said it as a startle.
He said, "No I did not."
I then explained it was all good, He was on Youth Group Lock out and ice skating, paint ball or laser fighting and bowling and eating.
I have to brag, I know no youth who spend their first few months,with the new found freedom (drivers license)  going to church and volunteering to help at church.
That is commendable and button bursting.

Ken and I then laughed at the way some will possibly react to this freedom.
 We could be wrong but Ken Said, "Kian, better known s Zoom Zoom will be driving 80 down the road, telling him " Hey dad I'm driving 80, catch me if you can."
They all have diverse personalities and You have to love each for themselves.
So in answer to K at this early date, 'Yes we can catch you."

K is the Last of this Generation of McLe's. I do believe everyone of the sons, then Grandsons of Ulysses and Rue are through having children, Now we wait for the next generation to progress.