From the Heart

Today I sit here wondering why this happens. I take care of me, I eat correct for the most part. I do exercise very little but at times I am afraid to exercise too much. Not afraid but I guess cautious is a good word.

I love everything I do, I truly love being with my grandchildren, I want them to remember me with laughter and fun. I want my children to remember me as a Mom who tried so hard to make a good life for them and their Dad.
I want David to remember how much we loved, how a song could make us smile. How he would walk up to me and nudge my neck, only to make me have chill bumps. He would then laugh. Some things never change.

So as the pain hit me yesterday, it was so quick, it was so intense, All I could do was say "God not today."
I am sure I will say that every time I have an attack.
I am thankful I am not like my Dad in that he passed out. I still can take care of myself, so if I am alone I can open my own nitro and time the pills. My Dad had to have total help.
He was out and on the floor.
I keep walking to my chair or to my bed or whatever is closer.
So with all this I am doing good.
Today I do not feel great, my throat hurts a little, I am pretty wiped out, Not sure why so much this time, but the Dr. told me to gradually work back into my life. HA. What is that word , gradual?

This is not a complaining blog, it is to let you look back and see how my days went. How I still have the deep commitment to my family and my friends.
HowI faced each day, by the tiem you are my age, the technology will be so advanced, (if you have heart disease) you will wonder at the difference. I know I do with comparing mine to my Dads.
I pray to God every day you do not have to face this but you are at risk, Please take care of youselves, You already have helped some by not smoking or drinking, You were not rasied in a smoke filled house. I also did not smoke or drink and I always exercised, So I have already lived twenty years longer than my Dad did. Twenty years, That is amazing. However in 1956 they only gave you nitro and oxygen for your heart. Not much.
So Someday when you look at this, remember my requests.
Take care of yourselves and the children that are also at risk.