July 2

Today my Mom would be 89 years old. She could have done it, My Mom had a strong constitution.
She fought many illnesses and won. She beat cancer, she beat a heart attack, she beat so many things, a stroke but the stroke is the reason for her demise.
It took me over a year to stop mourning her loss. I missed her every day, The grief was so strong I wondered if I would ever be normal again.
It took a while to figure out but one day I realized what it was. I was an orphan. I lost my Dad when I was eleven years old and now I had lost her .
I was a grown woman but realized my own mortality.
I realized I am the older generation.
Now I realize it is not a bad place to be. I can be a spiritual guide or I can be a sad sack.
I pray I am more of a guide in your lives. One day you can look back on and say "My Mom told me that would happen." Or "I wish my Mom were here to help me in this decision,"
I will be there, just ask, and I will be looking out for you. I truly believe that.
I try to impart wisdom. I hope it is taken in the love it is given.
I recall so many times my Mom would tell me something and I passed it off as "Oh My Mom will always be here.," It is strange, but you never think your parents will be gone.
Oh you know they will pass, it is the cycle of life, but it is not a reality in your world.
It is easier to go day by day and know they are are phone call away and they are praying for you.
I still miss my Mom every day. I never peel a potato that I do not remember her teaching me how to do it so none is wasted.
I never make a bed that I don't hear her say , "Do it right the first time."
Will my mom ever leave my thoughts? I pray not. She is my guide in my life. She was my support when times were bad. I could call her and cry my heart out, and yes I did more than once.
Often I called her to let her know she was still needed in my life and I needed her guidance.
I called her on quilt questions. She loved it when I did that. I called her to find out how to fix a potato a specific way.
When I am in town I smile when I see and elderly person being cared for by a younger person. I want to walk over and say, "You may see this as difficult now but you are so blessed for a season." A Season is all we have.
It is now fall and quickly becoming winter, a winter in our lives, We have enjoyed the sun and the life we have, we Thank our parents for their wisdom and care.

So today I recall my Mom, Happy Birthday Mama, I know you are in Heaven rejoicing and no pain.
I love you forever and a day.