We did see Retha on Sunday. As we walked in she was sleeping in her chair. She roused herself awake and yawned for a couple of hours. She said, "Man I was really deep asleep".
The previous night her heart and breast cancer were in a battle to see which could cause the most pain, (her words).
My last post said, she was not having a lot of pain, I have to change that.She now is having a lot of pain. She said the breast hurts so bad, she has knots in her back and around her kidney area. She knows where growths are in her body.
I say, she is probably right, as women are more in tune with their body's than anyone thinks. I know any little difference in my skin, any knots, any swollen knuckles, any change in eyesight, any thing, any pain in my heart, it is usually small, but believe me it is there. I can pinpoint it and so can she.
We had a wonderful visit, with laughter, teasing, and serious talk.
Retha does not think she will be here for her appointment in November. I am driving to Paradise to take her in. I asked, No I told her I was coming. She agreed.
She told us "had she known what Paradise was like she would never have prayed so hard to go there." (joke, she detest the town of Paradise she lives in).
I took her fried chicken and a Banana Pudding. I hope she enjoys it.
As we left I had my music on, Gaither CD,.
As they sang, "Too much to gain to lose," I lost it, and I was driving. Tears were flowing. Snot was pouring. (graphic photo there). I told David I can't stand the thought of losing her. It just breaks my heart. She is my sister. For all intents and purposes other than blood. She has always been so, so, It is hard to explain. She has been a good person, Made a few mistakes but who among us has not. Her heart was always in the right place. Always loving her family. ALWAYS.
She adores her two brothers that remain.
So the roller coaster. We arrived at Kens and a gang of children (4, baby could not run yet) met us yelling, Ma maw Papaw, and hugs hugs hugs, and jumping on me and papaw. We stayed for dinner, Ken made a mean fajita. (Spanish for something). He and his dad cooked dinner.
We had lots of laughter. My son is losing weight and looks great, I told him it was showing then began to laugh hysterically as I said, "You are like your Dad, lose in your face first, he always said, "Yes I get this little bitty face and head and a fat body". We then quote the commercial where the man comes in with a shrunk head, saying He had to go home, "Little bitty head here."
I had to fix that one as I said, "Not that you have a fat body, just a little head."
I think he got me back though when he looked at the photo of me and Retha and said, "Oh my two grandmas". I woke up last night and figured out what he meant, (I am a little slow sometime). He meant I look like my Mom and she looks like Hers. DUH!!!!
The children were their usual selves. Kiara wanting lots of hugs and always using her girl charms, Caylum ALWAYS SMILES, Jarod blue eyed and smiling . Evan seriously working the computer (his laptop) and showing me his smart board demo. Leila, so beautiful and such a happy baby. Her personality is developing so much. She has this cute turned up smile. Really both sides of her lips are in this up smile. I have to post a photo if I have one clear enough. She loves to squeal.
Of course we got several hugs and kisses and the inevitable dance scene.
At one point they came in from playing and I became my Mom.
"Have you been out rooting with the pigs. Your nose is dirty."
I took a photo of Cay with this dirt but the dirt did not show as much as I wanted. He was laughing but then tried to see what I was laughing at. So I snapped his photo. Therfore the serious look which is seldom. (I think he was trying to see his nose. Love those green eyes though).
Oh yes and Papaw got to sleep a little. So what is new? I said "he sets there and fights it"
Ken responded "he does not fight too hard as sleep always wins".
So my favorite quote. (wish I could find this poem again)
The previous night her heart and breast cancer were in a battle to see which could cause the most pain, (her words).
My last post said, she was not having a lot of pain, I have to change that.She now is having a lot of pain. She said the breast hurts so bad, she has knots in her back and around her kidney area. She knows where growths are in her body.
I say, she is probably right, as women are more in tune with their body's than anyone thinks. I know any little difference in my skin, any knots, any swollen knuckles, any change in eyesight, any thing, any pain in my heart, it is usually small, but believe me it is there. I can pinpoint it and so can she.
We had a wonderful visit, with laughter, teasing, and serious talk.
Retha does not think she will be here for her appointment in November. I am driving to Paradise to take her in. I asked, No I told her I was coming. She agreed.
She told us "had she known what Paradise was like she would never have prayed so hard to go there." (joke, she detest the town of Paradise she lives in).
I took her fried chicken and a Banana Pudding. I hope she enjoys it.
As we left I had my music on, Gaither CD,.
As they sang, "Too much to gain to lose," I lost it, and I was driving. Tears were flowing. Snot was pouring. (graphic photo there). I told David I can't stand the thought of losing her. It just breaks my heart. She is my sister. For all intents and purposes other than blood. She has always been so, so, It is hard to explain. She has been a good person, Made a few mistakes but who among us has not. Her heart was always in the right place. Always loving her family. ALWAYS.
She adores her two brothers that remain.
So the roller coaster. We arrived at Kens and a gang of children (4, baby could not run yet) met us yelling, Ma maw Papaw, and hugs hugs hugs, and jumping on me and papaw. We stayed for dinner, Ken made a mean fajita. (Spanish for something). He and his dad cooked dinner.
We had lots of laughter. My son is losing weight and looks great, I told him it was showing then began to laugh hysterically as I said, "You are like your Dad, lose in your face first, he always said, "Yes I get this little bitty face and head and a fat body". We then quote the commercial where the man comes in with a shrunk head, saying He had to go home, "Little bitty head here."
I had to fix that one as I said, "Not that you have a fat body, just a little head."
I think he got me back though when he looked at the photo of me and Retha and said, "Oh my two grandmas". I woke up last night and figured out what he meant, (I am a little slow sometime). He meant I look like my Mom and she looks like Hers. DUH!!!!
The children were their usual selves. Kiara wanting lots of hugs and always using her girl charms, Caylum ALWAYS SMILES, Jarod blue eyed and smiling . Evan seriously working the computer (his laptop) and showing me his smart board demo. Leila, so beautiful and such a happy baby. Her personality is developing so much. She has this cute turned up smile. Really both sides of her lips are in this up smile. I have to post a photo if I have one clear enough. She loves to squeal.
Of course we got several hugs and kisses and the inevitable dance scene.
At one point they came in from playing and I became my Mom.
"Have you been out rooting with the pigs. Your nose is dirty."
I took a photo of Cay with this dirt but the dirt did not show as much as I wanted. He was laughing but then tried to see what I was laughing at. So I snapped his photo. Therfore the serious look which is seldom. (I think he was trying to see his nose. Love those green eyes though).
Oh yes and Papaw got to sleep a little. So what is new? I said "he sets there and fights it"
Ken responded "he does not fight too hard as sleep always wins".
So my favorite quote. (wish I could find this poem again)
Remember me with smiles and laughter
as I remember you all.
If you must remember me with tears,
Please dont remember me at all.
1 comment:
Was a great visit! and mom that is the entire poem or just about.
Remember Me
Remember me with smiles and laughter,
For that's the way I'll remember you all.
If you can only remember me with tears,
Then don't remember me at all.
~ Michael Landon
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