Today as a Present

"Today is a gift, that is why we call it the Present."

And I love getting presents. Well actually I rather my friends and family save their present money and get themselves something from me. I find gifts a little embarrassing, I have all I need or want.
Well that is not exactly true. I need a breakfast bar in my kitchen, I have little counter space and a breakfast bar is so cozy. I need to get busy and clean my garage, pack up stuff, I am tired of some of my clutter. So as I lie around here my mind is a whir of activity.
I am working on my quilt blocks, (embroidered) and watching a lot of television.
Right now "The Wizard of Oz" from 1939. Beautiful.

My gift is the gift of one more day, One more time, One more sunset and I am satisfied.
I hope to hear from my oncologist this week, telling me what my options are.
Everyone that knows me know I will not sit this out, I will fight. I will not say I am sick.
My voice is still not strong. I want to sing but am afraid I will croak, so I will try that when David goes back to work.
I try but it goes squeaky and people think I have laryngitis.

I have no idea how far the cancer has spread, I am not sure the doctors even know.
I am believing it stopped at the one nodule it was in.
All I can be for sure is, I need your prayers.
I need to be out in the sun, digging in my garden, pulling weeds, cutting my grape vines back and purchasing a lot more for a grape orchard garden.
I firmly believe dirt running through your fingers is the best therapy there is.
I just have Faith. Faith to move those mountains. Strength to fight to the end, Love in my heart to know God is in control of all situations.
Some say, "So if you have that faith, why did you get cancer?"
Maybe it was to show my faith to others as I passed through this process.
I did have many opportunities to tell of my faith to several nurses and my Doctor knows I have very strong religious beliefs.
It was suggested I keep a journal. I think, if you don't mind, this will be my journal, good days and bad.
Trusting days and questioning days, Healthy days ,and days I just want to sleep.
I will have them all. I do have them all but I will hang in there.
I plan to dance at several weddings.
And Darlene told me, "You have to stay around to see what that new one grows up like, He has mischief in his eyes, They are full of wonder."
I totally agree, He is going to be a shining light, as they all are to me.
So again, Keep me in your prayers.