Rest for Tomorrow

I discovered that being 64 is older than 63. I feel old today.
(Could it be the two surgerys in December or the four months of wondering what was happening next?)
I tried to work in the yard, but when I started judging how many more steps I had to take, I thought I should stop.
This is not me, I am (should say was ) a go getter but I can accomplish nothing. I had planned to work the back yard, and rework the flower bed.
All I succeeded was to get the tractor stuck on top of a mound. I did move a cattle panel, it is about 16 feet long and must weigh 50 lbs. (not an exaggeration) I walked it out of the grass to lean on my Rose of Sharon trees, I moved a big pile of Rose quartz stepping stones, No I moved two piles. One stone at a time. Oh I did pick up a wheelbarrow full of huge rocks. So I guess I did accomplish a little, just not what I planned.
When I was counting my steps to get the cattle panel straight I knew it was over. And I did not work two hours.
I came in, showered and put on a house dress and sat down, I kept saying, "Go lie down, Go lie down". Finally I made it to the bedroom and slept until about 3:11. David came in checked on me then I got up.
I knew I could not sleep long as night would be here soon and I knew I needed to rest then.
Why oh Why do I do this to myself?
I get so tired I get weepy. I Do not like that part of my personality.
I overdo, Thinking I can make a difference, when in the end no one will remember I was even here. No one will appreciate the beautiful Rose Garden or the Neat paths or the Vine covered trellis I create. No one to say, "Oh the lady that lived here was a lover of Nature, but mostly had a deep appreciation for all things, All things created by God, and found beauty even in an old tree stump".
Oh the stories she could make up about the trees former life." Always the dreamer.

So I read my verse for today, It put things in perspective.

"The whole earth is full of your Glory"

Isaiah 6:3

Let me take nothing for granted Lord,

especially the small and simple things,

the pure and lovely but often inconspicuous things....

Help me to see in all things

your creative hand of love.

So no matter what I do not accomplish, the Lord has accomplished much through me,

I see his beauty in the earth that surrounds me.

I know tomorrow will come and I can begin again.

Tonight I will rest in his peace and Love.

Good night Darling ones .