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I don't think sharing my thoughts is a good idea. Recently they are pretty distressing.
I wake up, (begrudgingly) I lay a while listening to K-Love while dozing on and off. Finally I open my eyes and throw back the covers, (again begrudgingly) make myself get up and trudge to the bathroom.
Step on the scales, (no weight gain) I have to watch this for fluid retention. I dread it most days as I am so idle. I assume I am gaining but so far Not.
I do my thing, wash my hands, go to the kitchen to make my coffee.
I do enjoy making my coffee. I grind my own beans and I use Buck Master coffee. It is an amazingly good decaf brand I have to drive across town for.
Well worth the trip. However sometime I am unfaithful to Buck Master, I often stop by Tobacco and Brew for their discounted coffee. I have found some wonderful flavors there but I can't pay regular price so I watch the discount table.
In the front of the store sit a few bikers, There is a tattoo parlor next door. They always admire my car. (can't blame them). I am friendly with them and discuss my coffee finds with them. Nice guys. I am not prejudice, I like almost anyone. That can be a bad trait.
I know there are untrustworthy people in the world but I see a trace of goodness in everyone. Tattoos and beer do not make the person, It is not what they do that makes them,it is the Heart.
The thoughts and desires of said Heart. In fact one Motorcycle group in Redding is "Riding for the King".
They wear do rags, leather jackets and look the part of a rebel but they Love God and that is their testimony.
We have to look at the heart, never look on the outside.
Back to subject or subjects.

Mom told me once, "You will just talk to anyone, wont you?"
I laughed and said, "Well I guess so." Personally I think everyone has a story to tell. Maybe they just need a smile or a good morning to make their day bright. Just one.

OK back to my morning.
I pour my coffee, pour my cereal and set down at the computer to check the mail. I take my medication.
That is where my problem starts. I think my medication is wiping me out before I begin.
Within 30 minutes to an hour I am so tired my eyes are heavy. My arms weigh 50 lbs each. (or feel like it).
I finally give in and go lie back down. I sleep about two hours.
I DO NOT LIKE THAT!!!!
I want to wake with the sun in my eyes and ready and raring to go.
That is how I was just two years ago. Where did I go?
I guess it was the surgery's and medication adjustment.
I WILL get there, I know I will.
I have such big plans but my body does not co-operate.
As long as my heart holds out I will do good, this is just a lack of thyroid thing.
I pray every day, every pain, every weird feeling, that it is not the cancer.
I guess I pray a lot.
I often think of Dave Sears. He said he felt awful, he did not feel like getting out of his chair.
What if I am feeling what he felt? If so, I can certainly understand his giving in.
I chide myself for being negative but I tell myself, "Sue you are not a person to give up, it is just going to take time, Give it time."
My Doctor tells me it is going to take time. I know it is, but I still don't like my waiting options.

I petitioned Davids help on Sunday, we planted my Zinnia, Princess Feathers,, and Marigold.
We cleaned up under out big 150 year old tree and he mowed with his DR.
He is a fanatic about it being neat back there.
I mowed with the tractor until I said, "I will quit when you do".
We agreed and quit after working about 3 hours.
I recall a day when I could spend 8 hours in the yard and still have energy to spare. Like my adrenalin was on overtime. Me the Energizer Bunny.

Today the wind blew so hard it blew a tree into a building at Shasta College, Building 800. I watched for ours to go down, you just never know what it will do.
I see several branches on the ground but that is just a good trimming.
So as you know I do not like the wind, I stay out of it, If I am out long I lose my voice.
Not sure why, but I guess it is the pollen in the air. I did get up in the middle of the night and let the patio umbrellas down, I could tell the wind was coming up.
In doing so I thought I aw the pool gate open. NO we never leave it unlocked.
I went on back to bed.
This morning I looked out and sure enough, the gate was standing open with the key still in the lock.
May have been me or Dave, neither of us can remember who went in there.
OH well, at least the children have gone from next door and they have never wandered over.
It is just something we are extra cautious of, No chance for a child to drown. That would destroy us as we Love children so much and that would be devastating.
I did get the pool clean last week but this wind has played havoc with the system again.
It is cloudy. Darn it, I see leaves everywhere and oak pollen.

OK not sure where I got off so many subjects but have fun reading and saying, "MY Goodness Mom what are you talking about?"