Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Prayer request

I drag around here trying to make myself get busy. I still do not feel great. I cough a lot, An awful lot especially when I lie down. It is so tiring.
I am OK though. I guess stress can bring a lot on your body or your body just weakens from all of it.
My oldest son is in a battle right now, and I am more concerned for his soul than for his finances.
I talk until I am out of words.
He is on the verge of losing a home he worked hard for, So many bills and no end in sight. I tell him God has something better, How many of us have to start over? Lots of us and it is always for the better that we do this.

On Sunday, Every statement he made I had a Bible illustration to use against his anger.
I seldom have those at hand and if you asked me now I would not even know what I said, I just know the Bible is there for our use, good times and bad.
How do you reach them? Anyone have any ideas. He has been in counseling, He has been reassured of Love for him, he is just so critical of himself.
Charles is disappointed in his oldest son and thinks the sins of his son are his fault. It is good to accept responsibility but God wants us to let go sometime. He died for our sins, all we have to do is accept it. Accept that gift as easy as reaching out and taking it, like taking a book from a table. (hope fully that book is a Bible.)
Please, Please keep him in your prayers as the days to come will determine a lot of his outlook. It should not but it will.
I have walked on the edge of this for a year. I have to quit walking carefully, I have to let my feelings out.
I am so tired of all these days that seem to never end.
All I want my son to do is speak what really bothers him and get it out. One time he told me what he felt was too horrible to put into words.
I am his Mom I know his feelings, I know what he needs to say, to admit. How do I know? Total perception of my son. The day he was born I knew him. As he grew up I knew him, He hated for me to look at him and read his face. He knew I was reading it like an open book.
I LOVE my Son so much, as God loved his son. I get angry at him and at this situation. I get so wired up about it I want to go make it all right.
I can't and I know that is what Charles is going through to a greater degree.
I want him to get angry at his Oldest son for putting him in this position. Heck for putting all of us in a precarious position.
I am requesting prayer for him, just whisper a prayer that he May feel Gods Love through all this.

3 comments:

Kristina said...

Always Mom.

Renie Burghardt said...

Oh, my, I will whisper many little prayers for Charles! And for you, Sue. It must be so hard on you to see what he is going through. But your faith is strong, and it will keep you going. Take care and God bless!

Hugs and prayers,

Renie

Loretta said...

I will be glad to pray for Charles. No sin is so bad that God can't forgive it if we only ask. He forgives and its gone, like it never was. I understand partly how he feels...I sometimes feel that my sins are to big, but I know better in my heart.
Bless him, it seems that men can't forgive themselves for being weak as easy as we women can. Take care Sue, my heart goes out to you.

loretta