Doctor Visit

After two days seeing doctors and me two days of working,  and tomorrow is another doctor day., We are exhausted.
I can not imagine how tired he is, dealing with pain and dealing with trips to a doctor or Pre Op laboratory.

Our news today was not what we wanted either.
Since he got hurt at work, he had to take the options, one step at a time.
However this may fix the problem,  (But probably Not)If not, What now?
Dr. Schwartz, said, As a rule in they get in and the tissue is too damaged to repair, they go to option two which is total shoulder replacement. However since this was OTJ  (on the job) injury, That is not an option."

What  it means is patch him up, to relieve some of the pain, then go back in later, for the replacement.

I told David "If I was not so calmed down, (from med) , I would cry."
I just want to throw up my hands and quit.
He is going to be out of it for at least 6 months and then we shall see.
Actually we will know before that is up, if his arm did improve. All he may have is some SOME pain relief, However the mobility of his arm is minimal.
The doctor even commented on the lack of mobility. (Pretty bad)

I  requested time off with him and my boss gave me the entire week off, Thank God.
 I was trying to be nice and not request too much time off, but I think she saw the need and put me off through next Sunday. I work this Saturday then I am off until the following Sunday, which is 4 days after his surgery.

Now what am I going to take to the hospital with me, so I can keep my mind occupied? Books? No!!
Embroidery? NO!! Notebooks to jot in? No!!
I can not sit still that long. I am sure I will pace and pace and pace some more.
My phone will be on for calls from the surgery staff. I may nap a bit. Yeah like that will happen.

I am not concerned about the surgery, I am just concerned none of this will work.
You know he was unable to swim with me all summer. He has been unable to play ping pong with me, He has been mostly unable to wash dishes, He can not mop or vacuum, He can not sweep the patios or vacuum the pool. I worry about him driving the car. I worry about his sleep patterns.
I feel so bad for him, My heart aches when I see him in pain.
Maybe this surgery will relieve some of the pain.

He keeps hearing, "you know this happens to people who consistently do the same thing over and over."
So today he said, "I was an accountant for 30 years, I have only been doing this for the last 10, Is it possible it happened in the last ten?"
The answer was emphatically "Yes"
As an accountant he did not daily pull on starter ropes. He did not daily help wind weed eaters, He did not fall on his arm. This June was a culmination of years of making sure every one of his clients were taken care of.
He did not want them to go out onto a job with a weed eater or mower that did not work. Why do that?
Every day, David McLemore, started and ran and wound every piece of equipment. He was concerned about their abilities to earn money and they can not earn money if they can not work.
They can not work if the equipment does not work. He made sure of safety and running condition for them.
I wish he had been sitting in an office and this would not happen, but he Loves what he does. After 30 years of accounting, He is now making a difference in lives of less fortunate men.
Men who look up to and admire him. He IS that kind of person, One who genuinely cares about his fellow man.
So tonight I am tired and irritated and not sure which way to turn.
So with that I know I need to turn to God for all my needs.

Praise you in This Storm

Casting Crowns

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen",
and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth