Kiara seeing her new lamp

Just seeing the purse for the first time.
She loved it.

Where have I been?

I am still resting, Resting a lot. I slept most of Sunday and today I lay around, all day.
I did finally go outside around 4 PM. I had to, I had medication to pick up. Man it was hot too, 115. At least that is what the car thermometer said, Hey after 110 who cares, Hot is Hot.
At least I can hop in the pool.
Right now I am trying to decide if that is what I want to do. Go swim or take a cold shower? Hummm

OK I have to tell you of my trip. The flight was great, as usual. I highly recommend American Airlines. Every time I have needed them, they get me out of here fast and reasonable.
MY SIL Met me at the airport with two of the children. ET and G.
We went home to Sheri who looked like she was too sick to breathe.
She spent most of the time in her room the first two days, finally I said, "You know, it would be good to get some fresh air." (always the bossy Mom)
She got up and walked to the porch for a few minutes. She did this every day until she was walking more each day. Not a lot, as walking or moving around tired her out. Tired to the point of shaking from head to toe.
I did all I could to alleviate her work load. OK I eliminated her work load for a few days.
I did enjoy it so much. I told her I was glad to do it, and I was.
It was not like when she was a little girl, I could sit and hold her and make it all go away, I had to watch her as she was so sick. Think that does not break a Moms heart. It does!
I snuck in one day to take her photo as she slept, when I zoomed in I saw her eyes slit open a little.
Sheri was not asleep, just too tired to open them all the way. She roused and I felt such compassion and helplessness at that moment. I could not make the pain go away.
However she was still alive and that was something to thank God for.
I saw daily improvement, Finally I knew it was time to go home. Sometime we just need out own time to improve with no one to concern ourselves about. Besides she has two wonderful older children to take care of the home needs. That is something they did so well.
Before I arrived the older children (14 years and 12 years) were taking care of the home, feeding the younger boys, and hoping Mommy came home soon. She had never been away from them.
I am so proud of those two children, cooking and keeping the home as normal as possible. That is the sign of well trained children.
M told me the day Mommy went to the hospital, she walked in shaking from head to toe and said, "You kids know I love you very much, dont you?" M said, "I cried and cried when she left, like she knew she would never come home again. It scared me."
Sheri did not remember this. She was too sick to recall much as she was passing out regularly.

Sheri still has a long road ahead but she will make it with lots of rest and keeping on pushing ahead. The weakness and illness has depleted her body of necessary nutrients and it takes a while to recoup. She was almost gone when they got her to ER and her BP was 50 over 40. Not good at all. In fact she and Mike saw the chart the next line down said, "DEAD" Really it did. That had to be frightening. Her temp went to 105 and her heart was not pumping properly. However she is doing so good now, I just say,
"Thank You God, Thanks to all who prayed."

Home Agin

I am so glad to be home, However I thoroughly enjoyed my visit and assuring myself my baby would be OK.
On one post I said my Daughter had taken a turn for the worse, She had, but I think it was a sad worse. Yes they did say she sounded like Pneumonia was setting in and that in itself is scary but Dad sat here on the desk and cried when we talked to her. He said, "Call and get a ticket now." We had to do some money shuffling but finally had enough money to order the ticket. Believe me he recalls how close to death he was, and how HORRIBLE he felt for ages.
Sheri, it takes a while to come back with strength. Just be sure to tell your Doctor when you go in. I know it is time that heals. I recall feeling as if I would NEVER be able to walk down my hall without tiring out. However one day I made it and then easier the next. Just work at it every day, IT will come back.
Heck, Now I can run down the hall. LOL
I can work all day and finally find a spot to just relax. I do that and it keeps me going.
Never Never give up, keep trying. and Never say Never or I can't. Because you can and you will.
My last day I gave the grandchildren a bad time, (in a fun way). I was alone on the porch, I suddenly walked in to get M, (12 year old). I crooked my finger at her to come on,
NO response, only a smile.
I then used my hand to motion to come one, (No response again, bigger smile).
I then used two hands and arms to motion (like I was shoveling). Again bigger smile, no movement.
I then pulled my arms to my side and ran in place, she giggled.
I then began dancing for her, doing the sprinkler. That got it, She came to the porch with me. Giggling.
ET walked out, I got up to do the sprinkler for him and he dropped his head, "Mamaw somebody may be watching".
I said, "I don't care, I am me and I love life and fun." (all the while laughing).
He went back inside, then came out a few minutes later.
I guess he figured if I cant beat her I may as well join her, (with no dancing)
I had a ball.
I adore those kids, and I want them to remember me as fun and full of life.
M told me she would remember me as NEVER sitting still.
That too.

Seat Ass ignment

OK sweetie you can relax, I get home on time and I have my seat assigned on the last leg of the flight. Aisle too.
I would prefer a window but this is at least a seat.
Kris, I get home three and a half hours later than you suggested. So we will have the long drive home. I would love to come over so we will see how that works out when I get there.
If I get to sleep on the plane I can make the long drive, We know David does not drive after dark.
See Ya.

Just thinking

Here it is Thursday night and I am considering going to bed. It is past time. I think around 10 PM.
I plan on an early day tomorrow. Corn day.
Then on Saturday it is Home day.
As of right now I have no reserved seat on the airplane from Dallas to Sacramento.
I guess they overbooked. Not a big surprise.
I plan on arriving early to check for an earlier flight out.. I sure hope so. As early as possible.
In addition the kids can have a full day free of me. (not that they need it).
We have had a lot of laughs and it is good to see Sheri doing so well.
I was so pleased to hear the surgeon say, she was asymptomatic. (meaning no symptoms). Like her Mom she has a weak stomach, so throwing up is no big deal. (most of the time).
Ulcers, a big possibility. I told Sher if I were her I would not have the scope to check for ulcers, I would just treat it as if I did.
I found that to be my best treatment. Slow down, relax, Life will go on and tomorrow will come as usual. The sun will shine eventually and for the most part, she is pretty much that calm. However she has enough of me in her to be a hyper individual. we just cant sit still.

I asked M, "When I am no longer here, what will you remember most about me?"
Her response, "That you never sit still, you are always busy."
NO one really knows how much I wish I could sit still, How I wish I could turn off my thinking and seeing needs, but I just can't, so I will continue as me, it has worked (for me) for 63 years, why not longer?
Let me rephrase that, I can be lazy, if someone tells me, I prefer you did nothing while here or I had rather do it myself.
I can then not do a thing, Nada, Zilch, Nothing.
I admit I am not very calm but I can do it.


Saturday I get to see my husband for the first time in almost two weeks, I think we have a lot of catching up to do. We talk daily but that is not quite as good as big strong arms around me.
He gets to splurge while I am away. But back to cereal and baked chicken and veggies in a few days, I know you though, You have missed that kind of food. He does love home cooked foods.

Right now he is looking for a car for me, a small car. We desperately need one,
I begin heart therapy in a week or so and I can not make three trips into town daily. It would defeat therapy. We will continue looking when I get home. I am thinking I would like a little Honda, something with good gas mileage but a Mustang or Fire bird and since I am dreaming why not a Corvette? (like that will happen). Guess we just see what is out there.
Maybe a repo , Would be OK too as long as it is in good shape.

Home

I will be home Saturday night. I am ready to be home. Things here are good. Sheri is a little pale and has slept a lot today, but that is a good sign.
I miss David a lot and I miss having his cheerfulness. He is such a positive person, always with a good word of advice.


I have so much enjoyed my stay here. I was going to make Throw pillows for Sheri's sofa but they have no scissors, or should I say, they have small scissors, Not quite sewing scissors.
In addition the fabric is Tapestry and it needs to be surged on the edge before cutting, (it could ravel out).
Another reason, I have no straight edge to use. I must cut it with a rotary cutter and have a line to follow.
So my plans have gone by the wayside.
I did buy her white lace edged sheets for her sick bed. There is nothing quite like being sick and being able to relax in your own bed with new sheets and a fresh shower.
I hope I gave her all the attention she needed.
I made Fresh Peach Jam. I bought a lug of peaches from a roadside vendor. Very nice, flavorful peaches but definitely not California Huge Peaches. Good anyway. I ate one on the way home.
I also put 5 bags in the freezer for cobblers. Will be good later.
OF course I did not make one, I do not make crusts. I buy Krustez and I find none here.
Friday, if I feel like it I plan on buying corn from the same guy. He said the one coming in is Peaches and Cream corn. Sounds good, I just forgot to ask how much it cost.
My family tells me Esau corn is the best but I guess you get what you can. I will put it in the freezer for her, then when winter comes, the family is set on food.

My stay is almost over, I did enjoy it and I was here when needed, I am now needed at home.
With that I say Good night.



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schedule

Today I find a time out. Sheri is doing much much better, Now I go home to rest. LOL
Last night I Had two (2) Little boys hogging my bed.
Literally hogging it, I finally moved to the foot of the bed and someone, (G) with his long legs kept kicking me and E was at the edge of my stomach.
Oh well I would move them out but once G woke up and whined. "Where is Mamaw?" I was at the foot of the bed.
I knew I had to suffer for the greater good.
So it looks like Maybe Saturday.

My Treats

I have been laughing so much at these kids.
For example, I took ET to town with me one day, we talked and he obeyed very nicely.
The next day it was G,s turn. As we left the drive he asked what we could talk about. I said, "Whatever you want."
He handed me a CD to play. It was Chipmunks Christmas songs. That in itself was fun, Christmas songs in July. However he told me "When we drive by a car you should turn it down so no one thinks we are weird."
I told him " I love being weird."
So on to the store. We begin shopping with incessant talking, on his part, me agreeing or laughing or responding in some way.
I should say, G is not quiet when he talks, He is very aggressive and fun.

As we approached a lady and her son he yelled out, "HEY, that is Garrett, Hi Garrett, oh never ;mind that is not Garrett.
OK so we move on,
G had filled me in on two of his friends, Austin P, And Austin C. We do not call him Austin P or kids will make fun of him so he is just Austin.
The other one is Austin C. Get the picture?
So we see a kid that has obvious cerebral palsy. HE is in a wheel chair, He is very frail and can not hold his sweet head still.
G looks at him and (unquietly) Says, "Hey what is wrong with that kid?"
I politely shush him and explain after we pass, that the young man has a disease but what he really needs is prayer and good friends.
He said, "Well I thought he was upset like a little kid would be if they did not get what they wanted."
We continue shopping. While I wonder "Did I handle this situation Correctly?"
Should I have approached the mother and explained to her, G's situation? Should I spent a little time in life's lessons with him? What is the proper etiquette?

As we pass the deli, Again I hear, "Hey Coach, Hey Mamaw its Austin P and Coach"
"Hi Austin P!!! Hey we were talking about meeting my team here today and here you are. "
He smiled and laughed and totally took the other kid by surprise with his exuberance.
He returned to my side, We continued on as he exclaimed over the luck of meeting them and how it would be so cool to see Austin C.
We continue on, as we approach sporting goods, I hear, "Hey Austin C, This is weird I just saw Austin P and coach and now I see another coach and Austin C."
Needless to say it was an interesting day and a day of total hilarity.
No boredom with G around.
He has a ton of questions and I do not have all the answers.

Enjoying Oklahoma

I am so relaxed, it is good. Good. I have had a nice time here although the circumstances are not one you would want to have.
Sher is doing good. She is slowing recouping, We all know this takes a little time. (actually more than a little). IT just takes time.
I sit on the porch on the swing, nearly every day. Why nearly every day. I am not sitting out there when it is sauna conditions. That is what we had a few days ago.
So muggy, so hot you literally felt as if you walked into a sauna.

Today has been prefect. Nice breeze, nice temp, so the porch swing came in handy.
Especially when I could sneak out. (LOL, E is hanging on a little the last two days).
HAnging on as in turning flips and putting his hiney by my face, sitting with me every time I went out, Talking Talking Talking.

I am missing David a lot, As usual, when I am away from him, I dream about him.
IN every dream I am searching for him but I cant seem to get to him. I Run, I walk and walk but the road only gets longer, bridges are often out and I have to cross rivers. Someone steps out in front of me and stops my forward motion. Weird Huh?
When I dreamed this on Wednesday night, I screamed out, HELP!! but thankfully I woke up and no one heard me.
IT would have been embarrassing.

I Do Not feel like cooking tonight so pizza it is, from papa Murphy's.
Sounds good and easy.

I better go make a salad, so y'all have a nice evening. I am.
(until I go to bed, E has begged to sleep with me, so we give it another try tonight.)

Sick Baby

I know, I know I spoil her but then I do all my children.
Sheri has been at deaths door, Literally knocking. She had lots of prayer going up for her life and health.
As of Saturday her BP was so low, she would faint on standing.
Now get this, She went to walk in and the doctor gave her medication, told her to go home and maybe in a few hours she would be better. He also told her sh had sepsis. How dumb can a doctor be or how uncaring should be the question.
She said as she left she knew she should go to emergency with the diagnosis but Hey she saw a doctor and figured he knew what he was talking about.
Her and spouse drove to Walmart, (102 degrees) to pick up medication. She told Mike she wanted to stay in the car where it was warm. She was shivering then, She had a coat wrapped around her but no warmth was to be found.
Sher went home and a few hours later, she got even worse.
As she left she walked to the living room and told the kids she loved them and left. Never knowing id she woulds see them again.
As soon as the doctors saw her they started emergency treatment. She had a high fever, chills Thai were painful, Incessant shaking in every part of her body.
They finally stabilized her enough to admit her.
The battle began. she was so sick.
Mike left her wondering if he would ever see her face again,. in life.
Then on Monday night she developed a lung issue, A rattle and dry cough. Pneumonia.
However the next morning she was better with that issue. At least the doctor told her she may have coughed it up.
She came home on Tuesday and I was here Tuesday night,.She definitely needed help.
I have been her to keep the House up and see to her needs.
she is still very weak, in pain and looks like death but she is alive. I say "only through the grace of God."
I thank each of you for your prayers I am having a quiet time her, trying to keep laundry caught up, kitchen clean etc.
It is not hard work.
I know I had to be here. I almost lost my baby girl, Gd put me in the right place at the right time.
Right now she has retired for the night and probably resting good.
I miss my husband and home but I also feel this is right.
God gave me another chance to help out.
With that said, I will say Goodnight
We still need prayers.

Sure is Monday

This weekend literally drug by. I mean literally. David and I worked in the yard until about noon on Saturday,
When we came in to shower, there was a message waiting for us, our daughter was sick. Very Very sick.
I called her back and she was resting, but returned the call. A few hours later I was watching our clock. If she was no better they were taking her to ER by 5 PM.
D called me, (her oldest son) and told me she had been taken back to the hospital.
Sher has never been in the hospital except to give birth to babies, have an appendectomy and minor stuff.
You know, Kid stuff. Twisting ankle playing basketball Etc.
So I guess you know I sat by the phone and did NOTHING. I literally did not even shower . I stayed in my PJ's until I heard more. I had no energy to get up and move my body. I don't know what good I thought I was doing by fretting.
But I was not alone, David was in the same boat with me. We were back in bed by 11 AM and sleeping. At 9 PM I was again in bed and so tired.
Stress, even if you hide it, is very tiring.
Today she sounds a lot better, temp is mostly normal, as is the BP. She is such a tiny thing, there is no fat and her organs are squished together, (per the doctor). Therefore they rub, as with her inflamed kidney. It is rubbing and having a harder time healing.
Today she is up by herself and going to the restroom. Prior she had to have a nurse as she was passing out from low blood pressure.
Possibly going home tomorrow. I know her kids miss her horribly. As does Mike.

I am so proud of those kids, As of Saturday evening D made a breakfast casserole to be baked the next morning. They brought their big dog into the laundry room to be their guard and they all planned to sleep in the living room, in case Daddy had to stay the night at the hospital. (they figured it would be safer with all of them together.) Isn't that sweet?
They had it all under control and planned out.

Now if Mamaw will just get busy today. I have already started. Still lots to do.
We have a computer person coming out today to clean up our computer. Clean up as in speeding it up. Taking useless programs off, downloading software. Etc.
I look forward to faster surfing.

So with that I best go to work.
Have a great day all.

Prayer Request

Tonight I am pacing the floor. I am biting my nails, I am trying to stay focused.

I received a call from my Daughter today, She is really Really sick.

First she fainted at work and began throwing up. Actually it began yesterday with severe back pain. But she has a job and figured she could make it to work and be fine later.

When she fainted, not one patron in the library came to her aid. That amazes me. NOT ONE.

She said they had to see me having a hard time at my desk.

After passing out again, she made it to the phone to get help.

Mike took her to ER. They sent her home with a kidney infection, and sepsis. Home with Antibiotics and pain meds.

After five hours she became worse. Mike took her back to ER. She was shaking uncontrollably, and in horrible pain.

They took her back immediately, ( I believe that is what they said)

She was given IV pain meds, antibiotics and test ran. They thought from the pain she had a kidney stone.

I was praying it was that, That could be helped. (With time). I hope I do not sound calloused for saying that.

But she did not have a stone. THEY DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS WRONG!!! Just that she is one sick girl. :(

That is much worse than knowing a stone is there. At least I would know what is going on.

I am concerned about the kids worrying about their Mm. I see where M has posted on twitter, checking on her. M is her 12 year old daughter.

I knew she would be awfully concerned. I pray G sleeps well as he may become anxious, (he has Asbergers disease) Not serious, it contributes to his personality (which I find full of life and fun)but situations he does not deal well with. He is growing up though and I see changes in his beautiful personality.

The baby, E is six and a wonderful Mamas baby. He loves to lounge in her arms and she loves his lounging. He will be missing her a lot.

D the oldest, He is Mr. strong but today I heard a catch in his voice. I told him I wish I could be there to help, he said, "I do too Mamaw".

Mike just called. She is resting, The doctor will run more test in hopes of ruling out pneumonia.

Right now all I want are answers.

Yes I am still pacing, I took a stress pill to help me relax. Not working yet. Going to though.

NOW Now I know how my Mom felt when I was so sick and she was 2000 miles away. That is about the hardest thing to realize when these things happen.

I know my Mom wanted to be her to help but I thought I was fine. Now I know exactly how she felt.

EXACTLY.

I even called my baby sister, crying, Can you imagine that? me crying. Whoa I was in a state. Good thing I had a cell phone, I was wearing out a path where I was walking, (pacing) in my yard. I could not sit still.

I know all things are in Gods hands, I have to remember that. I have to put my trust in him.

She has been sick for a while. I think for over two months, I know she was sick while we were there in June, but she figured it was something else, (like stress). Her eyes were hollow and she had lost a lot of weight. No beautiful spark in her eyes.

OK now I have to trust and get rest myself. I cant let me get sick too, in case I need to make a quick trip to help out. Which I will do if necessary.

So with all that, Please pray for my baby, She needs it tonight.

She is resting in the hospital, they are running test after test but she is on pain meds and antibiotics.

Thank you all in advance for prayers.

Lavender

Did you know, You should never use a trimmer while wearing shorts?
I found out the hard way. I was trying to trim around my lavender, There are a few rocks around the base. Not a lot, but I did throw a few. (with the trimmer). I felt every one of them.
Then suddenly I felt something running down my leg, I had thrown a piece of lavender INTO my leg. No lie. I thought it was a piece of the trimmer line, because it was purple. As pulled it out I realized it was a piece of stem, with purple flower heads on it.
Man did that hurt!!!
I let the blood flow but Put away the trimmer, David is better at that anyway.
I got down on my knees and (prayed), that too!
No I got down on my knees and trimmed with scissors.
The grass under my plants was at least 8 inches high.
Right now I need to go out and pull the heads off the lavender and place it in sachets. Sounds nice Huh?
Nan that may be something you want to grow.

A couple of weeks ago I was standing by the pool, I suddenly smelled something really nice. I kept sniffing the air, I could not sense the source. As I stepped into the pool I turned and there it was My Lavender. DUH,,,
I told David "As sensitive as I am to scents, you would think I recognized Lavender when I smell it."

How is this for rambling?
I sure wish Coy and Lou would come out while the weather is nice for swimming. I know they would enjoy it and a day in Lassen park is always good in the summer.
Oh well, whatever is good anyway. We look forward to their visit.
We are supposed to have two grandsons this month but no word yet on When.
Hey guys put them on Amtrack. That will get them here and they are old enough to be smart on a train.

Angina

Today I decided it was time to see my Cardiologist. I have an unusual amount of pain.
Not pain, maybe call it discomfort. I take a nitro and I am fine.
I look great, I am tan, I am in good shape, but I have a bad heart. I know all about it.
This is hard for me to accept.
When I get these pains, I am suddenly reminded of my inadequacies, my mortality.

Do I get scared? Yep. Some, but not scared enough to stop living, but scared enough to see my Doctor.
Anyone that knows me knows I hate to sit it out.
I want to dance that next dance, I want to run the race as fast as I can. I want to play harder and laugh the loudest. (Did you know laughing makes my heart hurt, A hard laugh, but I WILL NOT stop laughing), I want to leave a lot of good memories, Wonderful memories.
But these pains stops me in my tracks.
Why? Because I try to follow my heart, (no pun intended). Follow as in use good sense and stop when my body says, "You better rest now."
My arm and neck has been bothering me, I take Nitro daily.
Today I saw DR. Chandramouli.
He gave me three options, Take medications (for chronic Angina) and see if it stops the pain with an EKG to follow again in a week.
Begin my Therapy, or Have an anagram. I chose the first.
Medication, I am good at taking.
I just hope they do the trick, although we know I have blocked arteries.
After seven years I am again back to building cholesterol. As of two years ago, I was taken to ER to check out an attack. It was one artery, Teensy, tiny, deep in the heart artery. Too deep to safely stint.
Several arteries that were repaired in 2002 are again blocked, over 50 % but all I really want to know is I am going to be OK.

So I went into therapy, It worked.
Now I need it again, I am scheduled in August. Actually I look forward to it, although it is expensive. I have to go for 35 days, in a row, (weekends off).
While I am in therapy I watch movies, It is my break time, I think sometime God makes me stop and reflect on him. So anyone have good ideas for movies to watch?
I will watch Amazing Grace, Maybe Schindler's list (again) Who knows but I am up for suggestions.
Keep me in your prayers. I am positive this therapy will work really well as well as the medications.
I have Mountains of Faith.

So with that I will close with words to a song.
I am in the midst of a storm, but I know God can walk on Water and calm the storm.

In the dark of the midnight
have I oft hid my face,
while the storms howl above me'
And There's no hiding place,
Midst the crash of the thunder
Precious lord, hear my cry
Keep me safe till the storm passes by

Till the storm passes over,
Till the thunder sounds no more
Till the clouds roll forever from the sky
Hold me fast, let me stand
in the hollow of they hand
Keep me safe till the storm passes by

Now many times, Satan whispers
He says there's no need to try,
for there's no end of sorrow,
there's no hope, in the by and by
But I know, thou art with me, and tomorrow I'll rise
where the storm never darkens the sky


Till the storm passes over,
till the thunder sounds no more
till the clouds roll forever from the sky
hold me fast, let me stand
in the hollow of they hand
Keep me safe till the storm passes by
Hold me fast let me stand
in the hollow of thy hand
Keep me safe till the storm passes by.

"Old Bitty Committee"

The 75 year old lady, (we will call her Joy) lived in the apartment for several years, She kept it clean, She paid all the co-op dues. She was a model tenant.
One day Joy needed knee surgery, Possibly replacement. She requested an apartment on the lower level.
When Joy approached the co-op they informed her the fee would be $2000 to move, plus she had to pay rent on the vacated apartment until it was rented.
Therefore she named the ladies with the clipboard, (the ones that walked the apartments to be sure all rules were followed) The Old Bitty Committee.
One day Joy had a visitor, she brought Joy a bunch of wooden hangers. Joy was ecstatic as she loved wooden hangers.
She also had a visitor bring her a few fresh strawberries.
As the visitors left, Joy dropped the hangers into the strawberry bag. She would put them away as soon as she was able to walk from her chair.
Joy Forgot about the berries!!!!
She took the bag to her bedroom and sat it on the floor. (thinking I will put the hangers in the closet later).
Later (like a few days) she spied the bag on the floor and slid it into place on the shelf of the closet.

One day Joy had a doctors appointment. She went to her closet to get her clothes.
Suddenly she panicked. Her clothes were covered with a red coloring, it looked like blood, and it smelled weird.
She called her doctor exclaiming "I can not come in, all my clothes have blood on them".
The doctor told her to call 911.
Joy promptly called 911 and explained the situation,. Blood was on her clothes, and she was scared of what had happened in her closet.
The police promptly arrived, (3 cars) and came in with their arms drawn. Each one covered the other, while one or more eased up the stairs, to the room.
Suddenly the officer emerged with a smirk on his face. "I found the culprit Mam, This is it, Strawberries".
I can only imagine the embarrassment Joy felt when the officers left.
She pleaded with the officers to keep it quiet, Please don't mention my name.
I can say that had to be as embarrassing as the stamp sticking episode.
And yes this is a true story.

Funny E

As you,that know me know, I have pet names I call my Grandchildren, (my children too for that matter).
So I call E, E T. I call M, Princess, I call Kiara, Angel, cay is Fluffy hair, Jarod is Beautiful blue eyes, (or I sing that one to him,).Anyway you get the picture.
That leads up to this story,
While in Oklahoma this summer, I called ET by just that, but I also called him "Hey Toot". (in total love of course). E is 6 years old.
So one day, He walked into the kitchen where I was working. Conversation goes like this.

E, "Mamaw can I talk to you a minute?"
Me, "Of course sweetie, just a moment." I am busy right now".
He waited then came back into the room, "Mamaw Can I talk to you now, It is sort of important."
I said, "Of course, I am coming now."
I put down whatever I was doing and followed him down the hall.

As we stepped into his room, he closed the door, AND LOCKED IT! I knew I was in trouble.

I sat down on his bed and said, "What's up Sweetie".
E looked at me very seriously and said, "Mamaw can you call me by my name? Not Toot or ET , Just E will be OK." I

said, "Sure Sweetie,
but I call you that because I love you so much and I think of sweet things when I see you." I was not being mean. "



He said, "Well OK you can call me E but my Mom calls me Love Bug and you can call me that".
I agreed to his conditions as long as he knew I was not being mean, I was using it as love names.
He said "I know my Mom calls me other Love names but I don't like Toot." I agreed, "No more Toot."
No more names other then ET or Love Bug and only if not in public. We must be careful to have no one watches us.

Do You Know

Where you were ten years ago today?
I do! I was sitting at my Mom's bedside. Just two days prior she had turned 80 years old. I had planned to be there for a celebration, (when one was planned) but I had been called to say "Good Bye".
I arrived late night on the 3rd of July. On the morning of the 4Th, I bounded over to the window, threw open the drapes and exclaimed on the beauty of the day. It was a beautiful day. Sun was shining, Skies were clear but Mama said, "Oh Get that light out of my eyes."
I laughed and promptly closed the curtains. I apologized for hurting her eyes and gave her my best good morning hug. That is how I began my fourth of July, 1999.

How dare the day be so bright? How dare the skies be so clear?
I want to scream,
"My Mama is Dying, Should not the world stop for a while. Just a while, to let me savor a few precious minutes and days with her."
I had my Mom for ten days, I sat with her, sang to her, prayed for her and cried for her. I more than once fell asleep holding her hand and crying.
But God had bigger plans for her. Plans To rest in him.
Have you ever lost someone and stood in silence and wondered why the world kept turning? I did for that entire week, I wanted to world to silence for a moment.
But everyone else needed the world to keep turning. Life goes on.

Mama would have been 90 years old this week, and I STILL miss her. I miss her every day. I think of her in everything I do, All she taught me, all she instilled in me.
I may have been wayward at times, but her voice was always in my head.
I can still hear her say, "Carolyn Sue, you know better than that."
Or this one, "Will you Kids Never Learn?"
Yes Mama I learned and learned well. You would be proud of the Woman, Wife, Mama, Grandmother, Aunt, Sister, and Daughter, I became.
I think a good daughter, One with your values and ideals.
I miss you today and forever.

July 4th

I had a poem prepared for posting. But I decided against it, The poem however beautiful was LONG.
So today as I sit here I am thinking of Jim Ed,Maxine,and Bonnie Brown, Today in Nashville there is a celebration. ( A celebration I would have been honored to attend).
But cost and time were an issue)
Their hit song became 50years old today. At that time the Browns Made Music History.
The Browns had a record to cross both lines of country and pop.
Their song "Little Jimmy Brown" sold over a million copies and climbed the charts fast.

I am here to say, they WERE Country and country through and through. They faced many hardships to "Make it".
Time has taken its toll on all of us. They are now in their 70,s, but today they are celebrating with the best of the best of Country.

Now what else did we do? We did a little yard work, house work and went swimming. Then we had homemade hamburgers and Corn on the Cob finished off with Ice Cream and Peaches?
How much more patriotic can you be?
(probably a lot more).

We could go watch the fireworks, but that would entail driving into Redding and fight traffic. Lots of traffic at the Civic today. We could just set here and watch Television, That is the plan.

We take our daily naps and it sure feels good to just rest.
The pool is sparkling and would Love to have some child swimming in it, but not gonna happen any time soon, (I guess).

So with that I will close this boring post.
Have a safe day, Love to all.