Perspective

It is all in perspective. To look at the sun from earth, it appears as a small ball. To actually be close to the sun you would be cremated and it would take 100 earths stretched across the face  of the sun to reach that space. Then to fill the rest, Well you get the idea. It is all perspective.
That reminds me of Sesame Street,
 "That's about the size, where you put your eyes, that's about the size of it."
So perspective was my word today. I thought of my and Davids 50 years together. It went like a snap of a finger.
Some days were trying,Some days we wanted to quit, some days we were yelling, some days we were lovers, some days we were saints and some days we were sinners.
Suddenly I thought of my Daddy, He did not even have 50 years on the earth. That is SO  sad.
 My Mom only had 19 years with him. She was a widow before she was 38. My eyes filled with tears as I thought of perspective and time and loss and time to never regain.
How fast did that time go for them? It was nothing compared to our time..
I recall my Mom saying,
"Sue I am still young, I still have needs, I still need strong arms around me and someone to hold me"
Did what she say register?
No not at all, I was so young, SO SO YOUNG.
When she lost a grandchild she was devastated and her words were "I have no one to hold and comfort me"
Oh how sad.
So my perspective on these 50 years is,
How long is 50 years? Did I blink and it was over? Did I say I  love you enough?
Did I do all I could to raise my children in the Love of God or did they see my shortcomings?
Did I fail at times?  Yes, No, Yes and Yes. But I am human.

I’ve been a walking heartache
I’ve made a mess of me
The person that I’ve been lately
Ain’t who I wanna be

But you stay here right beside me
Watch as the storm goes through
And I need you

[Chorus]
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you


There’s more here than what were seeing
A divine conspiracy
That you, an angel lovely
Could somehow fall for me
You’ll always be love’s great martyr
Ill be the flattered fool
And I need you

Perspective????
It is all in how you look at it.

Lord let me look at all things from all angles and see your devine will in my life"